The first time I met my first wife at a dance in a small town in northern Israel. We spend the time my friends and then she appeared there, small and frail. It was just at a time when I started the permanent service as deputy company commander in the army. We had ups and downs but no crisis we went through was nothing like a crisis following the first attack. We were married for about 3 years when he reached the same crisis Abmshirut reserve areas. I went through the same crisis after a prolonged hospitalization wreck. Recovery from a prolonged period was the first time she has supported me and helped me a lot, but over time it diminished. She took the reins most of the subjects in which we touched at the time.
If I collapse before it was dominant and I was the one who cared for most of the tasks of our life together, the situation was quite different after him and naturally it was only clear that she would take the lead. And its transportation, so the feeling was intensified in her self-confidence. You’ve probably collapse at the time of the first, made up the core decision that if it happens again, she just get up and leave because its forces were limited and did not have a strong enough character to deal with reality. That’s what hurt me most clearly. Is it only when we succeed and successful like us?, Is only when we are at the peak of success in our lives to our spouses will support us?, It’s not smart to support and love only when everything in life better with us, wisdom is also to deal with things that the partner was not at his best and at his hard life to deal with all . Then came the second attack on the second day hospitalization, she just took her things, did not bother to say goodbye, and never looked more on the horizon until the first debate on rabbinical court Gyroshnu.
departure hurt me more than anything fits together. Sense of humiliation was immense and it was hard to recover from it for a long time. I decided I was not discouraged, I started dating a blind date after signing up for online dating sites. I met with between 3 and 4 girls a week, filters and sorts.
I divided the number of seizures and some preferred not to tell, so I checked the various responses. One girl told her, claimed it did not bother her, but the opposite was true, she always felt sorry for me, constantly afraid lest hurt me until one day after a brief introduction, just phone me up and claimed to me probably because I’m still not a new link . I do not know if it was the real reason or just an excuse.
another girl told her first date, Ray took pity on me, but continued to go out with me anyway. I was passing the free time on weekends and distributes it among a brief visit with my parents and exit dates with the same girl. Friday we met two days, also I spent the night at her home, it was strange at first but I was looking for all sorts of ways to get out routine and it was one of them. Sex between us not been kind to us to say the least. Probably still spells substantial effect to me and disturbed me to get optimal performance. About a month after we started out, I decided I was not attracted to her and met with her to say goodbye. Her response surprised me, she did not spare me beautiful words, I will spare you them. Among other things we separate good argument, because you see I’m mentally ill, “even your hands are shaking all the time” which was not true and probably fueled by the stigmas fundamentally about people “like us” and decided to leave the relationship with the upper hand.
Another girl, single almost told her my age At the beginning of the relationship of seizures, greeted me cordially. It said that if my only drawback, it is willing to accept me as it is. Say to her credit that really appreciated her honesty and how it got me, just unfortunately not attracted to her enough to need to continue with the connection.
It should be noted that I was quite prepared to accept almost any girl and I was not a big picky, as long as he likes you and her. I was not in the best better emotionally and searched the warmth and love candles that come to me after I went through crises. I was very naive my relationship with girls, and naturally I can not lie. So I preferred to book early. Maybe it was a mistake, might be preferable to wait with this story later in connection with which built trust and love blossoms or another story from the past was not hurt. Currently a study is already getting to know each other a story like this becomes a really marginal.
but severely damaged confidence after my wife’s departure spells first, obviously I went through a deep crisis. I was introverted by nature This feature was possibly more dominant in those days. But an outsider who know me, could not say what source it went through a crisis and can not say if the reason is that the seizures or divorce. I think it was a combination of both. I felt very humiliated at the time.
One day I received a message from a girl dating site its site was the card without a picture ID (with photo was my “best days”). If she lived in the same city I live in it and very happy at the opportunity, at last I will not have to travel distances enough to meet girls. Was our first meeting after the No. She left messages on the phone and went to voice mail several days before she came back to me. We decided to meet at a restaurant and everyone will come to his vehicle.
We met at a restaurant in town where we lived, she was the favorite shows spark between us was from the start. She ordered coffee, and I ordered coffee and eat hummus with pita bread, a winner until today we laugh at their source. Our conversation flowed, when I told her about what happened to me and what I went through. She rejected me and I felt even then that she was very fond of me.
From this I move the description of the evening my wife (her cheerful girl at that meeting):
“When I arrived I was meeting a blind date after several unsuccessful miserable this way and that way I always thought to myself Why? It? I’m a girl that looks good, full of life and humor? I can wait for the best – even if it takes years I do not care? always got a blind date with my car so I can run within a few minutes Oops return back to my girl Oh I forgot to tell that Today my little girl 7 years old but then she was two and a half or so, I put Bauakcour child with my parents and told them as usual within 5 minutes I go back I got a meeting I could not believe he was leaning on the car was a guy in my eyes at that moment just a handsome guy I liked What I saw I had a click Yes, we sat and talked until 4 am 5 (when I was sure I come back within 5 minutes to take my child from my parents) He told me about all he had, and I thought the heart How could a guy who looked so good to believe To me he looks really, really good, how a guy like that so sad and not fair I do not deserve him anyway when he told me what happened to him and moved him? I told him it was familiar to me because my sister’s husband Jesse for many years disabled IDF Fergana and his family, Ronen relaxed and smiled for a moment.
